Anonymous American, American Renaissance, November 18, 2023
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This is part of our continuing series of accounts by readers of how they shed the illusions of liberalism and became race realists.
I grew up in the Lower East Side of Manhattan, which was a hub for racial diversity during the early 2000s and 2010s. I interacted with Asians, Hispanics, blacks, South Asians, etc., but scarcely with any whites. When I went to school for the first time back in 2005, I stepped into this diverse world and naturally did not think anything would go wrong as my understanding at the time was diversity was normal. As soon as I began to learn, I was taught that white racism was evil and responsible for the suffering of people and the source of selfishness, authoritarianism, and malice. Given that I already lived in a diverse world, this made me distrust white people and even fear them, believing they were out to get me since I am of South Asian origin. I particularly didn’t take kindly to authority, which I believed white people ultimately embodied.
However, as the years went by, I began to be bullied by the other students, particularly the Hispanic and black students who mocked me because I came from poverty and had parents who were 13 years apart in age. But as I only knew this diverse world, I didn’t draw the connection to race, especially as I still thought white people were evil. The teachers, who were mostly black, Asian, or Hispanic, rarely stepped in to stop the bullying, and often the bullies would play victim by mildly harming themselves near me and accusing me of doing it. I often got in trouble because of them, and I remained a loner as a result. Even any “friends” I made during this time also ended up bullying me.
This continued all the way to middle school, where diversity was the most important value which I still believed after being stomped out, punched, or slapped in the face, or nearly beaten up by Hispanic students. The few whites that were my teachers did show me some compassion, but they were helpless to do anything as they also bought into the idea that “diversity is a strength.”
But when I got to high school, things changed dramatically, as I was now fortunate to attend one of the best high schools in NYC, whose student body was mostly white, Asian, and Jewish with a significant amount of mixed white/non-white added in. The majority of the teachers were also white or Jewish with some Asian/mixed-race added in. When I went into this high school, I expected the bullying to continue, but most students either ignored me or politely interacted with me, and for the first time, I began to question diversity as I always thought all people were terrible and out to dominate/abuse others to have social power and “respect” like the bullies I once had or the aloof educators who could care less about me.
I slowly began to research conservatism, which some of the whites I knew believed in, and found their ideas and goals agreeable. I decided to slowly look more and more into right-wing ideas and beliefs, until one day I decided to look into the truth and perspectives of race that were outside of the pro-diversity view. As I learned to be open-minded, I discovered the differences in behavior between the new white people and the old non-white people.
First, I went to forums, but then I found lots of old books on race on the internet written during the 18th–20th centuries and I read them regularly. Finally, I discovered racial crime statistics through websites like AmRen and other pro-white sources while also looking into the rebuttals. I ultimately found that the pro-white side was right, and I accepted that racial differences are real and are based on differences in intelligence. Given that I still live in the diverse world I grew up in, where there are plenty of intelligent and studious non-whites from all backgrounds, I found the difference in behavior couldn’t be the actual source of racial differences, so I kept contemplating and researching about this until I found the ultimate truth on racial differences.
The ultimate truth was that the differences between whites and non-whites weren’t due to variational distinctions like brain size or skin color; it was due to wholly separate differences in physical biology combined with intelligence. Those differences subsequently drive whites to be more compassionate and humanitarian because their existence as a people/race in itself is important. In the non-white world I live in, however, personal gain, social control, and moral authoritarianism are important, which is why I was bullied for so many years by non-whites of all backgrounds, while whites did not and treated me humanely despite not being physically the same as them.
So I went from hating/fearing whites to absolutely standing by them and supporting their goals for racial separation and moral/biological freedom from non-whites. The growing presence of those non-whites is exposing whites to the same bullying and social control I once went through as a kid, with no authority stepping in to stop it. I hope whites will understand the moral authoritarianism of non-whites and their own moral humanitarianism, which comes from their separate and unique existence as a race/people.
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